While at said work I was listening to The Essential Dixie Chicks on Spotify and I heard “The Long Way Around” for the first time. It begins with the singer describing how all the other girls graduated from high school, got married and settled down. She says of herself, “I couldn’t follow” and that she “hit the highway”. She ended up following her dreams and taking the long way around.
It made me reflect on my life a bit and where my path has taken me. As a girl I always thought I would get married after college, have children and be happy taking care of my family. I am now 45 and am coming to terms with the fact that, barring a miracle, that will not happen for me. Oh, I still hold out hope to get married but I’m sure my eggs are a little past their expiration date. Even though I could be the next Gwen Stefani or Halle Berry and have a child in my mid to late 40s, I think the odds are stacked against me.
The other day I was feeling a little melancholy about it. Facing reality is not easy. I try to have a good attitude about things and do believe that God’s plan is the best for me even when I sometimes don’t agree with Him. I usually go with the flow but I got a tiny bit panicky. Crap! I always thought there would be time! Time is running out, my dear.
So today, listening to this song made me feel better and brought a smile to my face. I am unconventional in every way. Not only am I a never-married 45-year-old woman, I am a giant woman in a land of mostly small men. I headed down south to the Loveliest Village on the Plains and developed a southern accent. And if I thought living in the South was different, I was then plopped down into foreign towns and cities where I knew no one and experienced an even more different way of life.
I am able to embrace that my life has taken the long way around. Yes, I would have chosen a different path, but God wanted me to take another. I trust Him and He has never let me down. At the end of the song there is a line that goes, “Well, I never seem to do it like anybody else.” (Ain’t that the truth?) And that maybe someday “I’m gonna settle down.” I hope that I do, but until then, I will continue on the path less traveled by. Heck, even Robert Frost liked that idea.